What exactly constitutes one's own obligations is usually clear to even the most undiscerning mind. Like anything else bordering upon the commonplace, its rigour though blunt is plain and clear. Just as the fledgling chick must face the prospect of flight from the nest, it is a reminder that nothing happens completely on its own and without commitment. Luckily for me I have always relished the advantage of a small degree of exercise, whether swimming, cycling or walking. I cannot in earnest say that I have ever risen to the level of an athlete in the performance of these gestures but nonetheless my fulfillment has been repeated and constant.
My late father (after whom I am discovering increased similarity) was a military man, a man dedicated to the strictures of propriety and conduct, not the least of which was to stand up straight, shoulders back. My model of this desire has always dwindled because I haven't square shoulders but instead am more inclined to appear as round-shouldered (something I am certain forever disappointed my father). It is but a small concession when one is down to preserve the hope of standing up straight. Currently my broken ribs contribute to endless back stiffness and related pain (which however I seek to diminish every six hours, three times per day, with Tylenol Arthritis 650 gm). I acknowledge this hardly supports the unblemished evaluation of Time as a healer but it shall remain as my posture at least for the time being. Perhaps my only claim to endurance is my ritual use of the Voldyne 5000 breathing device (an Incentive Spirometer) which I confess I have some trouble using in the strictly recommended manner (that is, I have trouble holding my breath as long as suggested).
For now I wander like a caged animal upon our condominium balcony (albeit with a measure of smug satisfaction that I am applying my weak muscles), greedily eyeing the interlopers on the beach walking on the Ocean shore. How I long for the day when I too can treat myself to that iconic pleasure once again. What remains here is a mere 4 weeks. Therein lies my ambition.